can someone please explain to me why there are times when I feel very outgoing, where I initiate conversations and derive pleasure from it, then I completely flip around and shy away from any social contact? Some days I actually want to talk to people and make new friends, and others I literally hide from people. Today I called up my friend to see what was happening tonight, he invited me over to his house to drink some beer. Now, I am not really a drinker but from time to time I like to indulge... but thats beside the point. I didn't go because he has a couple of people over that I don't know. Instead I drove into town and rented a fucking dvd, and am now sitting at home on a saturday night. god damn it, i feel so pathetic sometimes.
I rented crouching tiger, hidden dragon. the only reason is because I think I am the only person in the world who hasn't seen it, and im a little curious as to what the hype is all about.
ohwell, fuckit. Ill do something next weekend.. this weekend I have a date with mac anyways.

song of the moment: phish: sample in a jar

alright, so I got some pictures.. went to edit them in the no-name image editing software that came with my camera.. the software absolutely sucks, I cant even change the size of the images. damn it.
I just installed mac OSX, it is alot different then 9.. its a bit of a shock actually. I think once I get used to it I will like it much more then 9 though, its much more visually appealing, and sexy.
Other then that my day is incredibly boring, I need to find some party favors. Thats what Ill do now, maybe it lift my spirits a little.
you have a great day.

alright, so I wont be posting any pictures tonight.. I don't have a decent photo editor.. damn it I miss photoshop. Ill probably install the crappy image editors that came with my camera tomorrow and post some pics then.. so come back.
This imac is so great, it came with a shitload of mp3s. including songs from filter, phish, new order, barenaked ladies, belly, depeche mode.. and a bunch of others.

does anyone know of any macwarez sites?
Oh yea, and if your looking for me on icq, IM NOT THERE, I still have to download icq.. ill go do that now

I'm writing this on my new Imac, and I must say.. I absolutely love it!! Its the coolest thing in the world. I also got my digitial camera which also kicks ass.. later I will post some pictures, so bookmark and stay tuned.

i forgot to bring my lunch from home today (cup noodles, its a daily thing). so I went to Arbys, and guess what?! The girl in the drive thru hit on me!. that was strange, ME!, yes, not you, but ME! hhhmm, maybe its my sexy new haircut, or my manly facial hair, or my cool shirt, or maybe she just wanted my body.
I bet thats it. yea, im sure of it.. she wanted me.

song of the moment: travis: side

yet another day of feeling like shit. My cold has progressed into mild flu symptoms, I nearly had solids exit my stomach via my mouth a few times at work today.. that sucked. On top of that my vehicle has a horrible gas leak, i had to borrow a truck from work because they couldn't work on it today. thats not so bad though because I can drive the hell out of it until I have to give it back tomorrow, using none of my own money for gas.

On a brighter side, I tracked my order a few minutes ago(for my computer and other stuff). My package is in Kenai! That means tomorrow it will be delivered! YES! that makes me happy.

I just slept for the past two hours and I feel great, usually when I sleep during the day I feel like a big pile of.. well, you know. I woke up with a completely clear head. I still feel a little sick, but most of the bad symptoms are gone. but, anyways.. im going to surf the internet, stopping at several blogs along the way.. my lated infatuation is bluishorange.com. I will make my daily stop at girlunder, although the chances of her EVER updating it are ZILCH!!!!!!! sorry louise, im still tired..maybe a bit cranky?

song of the moment: eels: 3 speed

Well, the good day I was having earlier faded away and now the cold that has been trying to get me for the past couple of days has won me over. My nose is running, my head hurts, and I just want to do nothing. The normal will have to due; surfing the net and listening to music..
Im excited about my new computer, I remember when I bought my first one about three years ago (the same one Im using now). The excitement I had was explosive, that feeling is coming back to me as my new computer is coming in the mail here in a few days. It will be a little strange going to a completely different operating system, windows is my native operating system.. its got some problems but it feels like I have grown up with it, switching to mac will be a big step.. but thats whats exciting about it.


Ego- the false center . You must read this, it is a bit lengthy but it is worth it.. if you have too, print it out and read it later. I read it often, it opens my eyes to a fresh perspective on life and helps me to break down the walls that are put up by everyday life.. just read it, you won't regret it! go now!

my head hurts.

I am on my lunch break at work, today is turning out nice! Its not raining like it was yesterday, its sunny, a bit breezy but sunny all the same. I am drinking my daily iced white chocolate mocha that I get from Kaladi brothers. (Im a coffee addict, and I love the coffeehouse setting) anyways, I am going back to work now.. blah.

I hate TRL. and mtv for that matter.

song of the moment: louis armstrong: what a wonderful world

I just ordered the following
graphite imac
600 mhz G3
384 megs ram
ATI rage 128 w/16 mb sdram
40 gig hd
cd-rw

epson stylus 777i inkjet printer
hp photosmart 315 digital camera

Now, i have always been a bit partial to PC but a friend of mine has slowly converted me over the last few months. So Ive been saving for a while and finally ordered what I wanted. Actually what I wanted was the 700mhz imac but it wasnt in stock, and I didnt want to wait a month for them to ship it backorder. And I am finally getting a digital camera, I have wanted one for ages. The one I ordered is a bit cheap, but its all that I could afford so hopefully its cool. So when I get my camera I will be putting up some pictures of myself and my surroundings on this site... so BOOKMARK damn it!

Today I got 8 hits to my site, I realize that an online journal shouldn't be all about getting hits but I would really like it if more people visited my site. if you have a blog and are willing to reciprocate links let me know, it would be very appreciated.

Today Levi and I were talking about our trip to Portland in January (if I get accepted to the art institute). I drive a ford bronco that gets horrible gas mileage, this will be a problem on the way down there. It is the perfect vehicle for Alaska but not Portland. Not only will it cost a shitload for gas to get down there, but it is very non-economical to drive a big-ass four wheel drive vehicle in portland where it rarely snows. I have a strange obsession with volkswagon, I have always pictures myself driving a 90's or later vw jetta. What I want to do is sell my bronco here since I probably would be able to sell it for much down there, I could take the money I get from the bronco and buy a small car once I get down there.. Hopefully a vw jetta :)

Anyways, there is also a possibility that I may be able to rent a three room mobile home from a relative of mine for not-too-much down there.. That idea was brought up this morning and I havent really looked into it much yet. Part of me doesn't want to live in a mobile home just because of the stigma that goes along with it, but shit.. I will never find a three room apartment for the price I could get this mobile home if it works out.

thats all for now, oh wait

LOUISE:
if you dont update soon, I WILL come over and kick your ass.

song of the moment: weezer: tired of sex

So, last saturday.. Im bored, sitting here doing nothing.. I call up my buddy Levi to see whats happenin, nothin. So we went to Anchorage (two and a half hour drive). We didn't know where were going to stay, what we were going to do, or when we were coming back.. We just left. And it was great. For those of you who don't know (Im assuming most of you) Anchorage is the biggest city in Alaska, over half the population of the entire state lives there. It is still a small city compared to pretty much any large city down in the lower 48, but hey.. its big for us.

We got to Anchorage around 9:30pm and called a friend of ours living in the UAA dorms. We met up with him, and after a night of interesting happenings (wandering eyes wan't to know) we wen't back to his room for a night of sleeping on the floor. The next day we woke up and ate at the Royal Fork. We then wen't to Borders, where I picked up Elliot Smith-XO. We meandered around the city for a while, stopping at various shops and malls.

After that we went back to our friends dorm, watched fight club and went to bed... We woke up the next day and drove hom, and here I am.

The trip was quite interesting, I really got to know my friend Levi really well. We have a lot more in common then I had once thought, not only to we have a similar outlook on life but we share very similar music interests. This is great because he is the one I am going to Portland with, the one I may be rooming with for the next three years of my life. It almost seems as though I made a new friend this weekend even though I have known him for quite a while.

all in all this was the best weekend I have had in a long time, full of spontaneous decisions and new surroundings.